Saturday, 11 May 2013

Is the inernet going to turn us into people that are spending time thinking about doing things rather than using that time to actually do them?

Like is it almost as cool to put a picture of a beautiful cheesecake on your pintrest board 'to bake' as it is to actually bake it?

Then there is the unhealthy way that everyone posts pictures as though all they do is have a good time. Like its often enough to think thats what thier life is about yet they don't seem to upload pictures of them when they wake up the next morning? And mop the alcohol off the floor? Unless they bearing their sunnies and off to brunch with the girls of course.

And the amount of time now that we are online rather than doing other things. I'm very guilty of this. Like I probably have checked my facebook about 10 times today and called my mum once. and thats only because it is mothers day.

And here I am posting on the internet about it.


I just booked a ticket to another location. Somewhere I will only settle for a little while before either coming back or moving on. I have been wanting to do this for a very very long time. And I just did it. I think what really pushed me to click purchase tickets was the real sense of ending I felt in this place tonight. I am over my flat mates, I was talking to a friend over there and missing her dearly, I don't think any of my close friends are really going to be left here after that and I am nearly getting myself into a relationship when I know that I want to move.

Having booked a ticket makes it real. Well, I could still get a return or change the dates or something. But yeah.
Its scary! Am I going to make new friends? Will I make enough money to save? Am I going to be creative?

This opens a whole new door of lists.
Should this mark the ending of lists?
As I only get disappointed when they never get done
they also hype up some things that I think are amazing ideas and then they aren't really.

I'm gonna write one anyway.

To do before I go:
Maybe move out of here
Tell everyone
Make at least one zine
Develop and take as many pictures as I can
Go out a lot
Sell things
Get things home
Make a nice CV
Make a budget
Only get one haircut
Have a good leaving thing
Get a vintage phone for work
get ink
only have the best selected clothes to take over
Plan a last week with everyone

I need to get my mind sorted also on the attitude I want to have over there. I don't want it to be all big city life and cafe livin'. I want hard work, pennies saved, big partying but with friends. Friends I want to really emphasise. Activities with friends. I want this to be a time to remember. I want to learn things frm people. I don't want to be embarrassed for not knowing I want to be confident so I ask and then learn. I want to grow. I will live out the rest of the year like this and then go to veitnam for new years. Thats going o be absolutely amazing.


Sunday, 21 April 2013

I'm quite undecided on how to keep a blog.

Tumblr is there and so is blogger but I don't have a clear line between the two. I post pictures on both. I write on both. More image there, more writing here. I like having the home page for tumblr.

Maybe wordpress is the answer. No followers. Just a journal. I have one of those too. But one for online. One to show. Because not everything is in print.

Maybe thats it.

Friday, 19 April 2013

Hamilton love
• friendly
• small
• jobs are ok
• some people
• have been here for ages
• room for new things

Hamilton hate
• been here for ages
• lacks new things
• some people
• jobs are ok
• small
• friendly

Saturday, 6 April 2013


Everyday back and forth what's it for
What's it for everyday back and forth

Faux


crispy guitars 
pushed through laptop speakers

stovetop coffee
with the cheapest beans

work soon
couples in hamilton east
reminds them of ponsonby

Thursday, 4 April 2013

The satisfying urge

Today, this bald man came into work. I was sipping on some cold sparkling h2go.

******urge alert****** I had the urge to pour some on his head. Of course I didn't. But just having that urge alone was enough to be satisfying.

AND I KNOW THIS HAPPENS TO OTHER PEOPLE. Because people have told me when they walk across the bridge they sometimes think of throwing their phone over.

another example was at work today again. I know! TWO IN ONE. so there was lots of customers and *****urge alert****** I thought about pausing the music and making an announcement.

I wonder if one day, my self restraint will get the better of me.

I probably shouldn't share this but I think hardly anyone reads and I will probably delete it soon anyway.

Sunday, 31 March 2013

Every girl knows
how the old saying goes
a moment on the lips
is a lifetime on the hips

frightened away by a double chin
or a tummy to tirelessly suck in
nightmares of oily fries
questioning 98% fat free lies

it's insecurity's game
it's our only aim
it's a bony frame

Saturday, 30 March 2013

Anxious to leave without a plan
I like this person. I hate this brand.
Must have kids, travel, own a home by then
tick the boxes drawn with permanent pen

Everyone takes their allocated seats
Trapped in tradition with no room for accidental treats.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"I guess what I am saying is that it all feels familiar. But its not mine to be familiar about. I just know that another kid has felt this. This one time when its peaceful outside, and your seeing things move, and you don't want to, and everyone is asleep. And all the books you've read have been read by other people. And all the songs you've loved have been heard by other people. And that girl thats pretty to you is pretty to other people. And you know that if you looked at these facts when you were happy you would feel great because you are describing 'unity'.
Its like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, and it makes you mad. And all you want to do is feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then you know that it means you are happy, too."

Wednesday, 2 January 2013

Wairangi

Wairangi is my middle name, its the same as my Nan's and niece's. I know that wai means water and rangi- sky. These two words conntate something beautiful... Like a rainbow perhaps, or the horizon where water meets sky although if you look it up in the dictionary you will find it is described with such words as foolish, deranged, hazy and even demented. see here

This is where it gets interesting.

My mum has suffered from mental illness and in the earlier days of this she insisted I was not named wairangi but waimaringi. This does not have any meaning and I never could really change it since it was passed on from my grandmother. Its just a little something I have just pieced together.

Wairangi is still beautiful to me, I'm ok with it. whether I interpret it as seperate words or as crazy, they're both pretty true to me. And well, at least it isn't boring!

Mihitaina Wairangi Riesterer